Tuesday, March 13, 2007

drink me...

everyone says;
thank god she survived...

fact is...
I
lost
her
between blurred ticks
and amputated tocks
one too many trips
to the operating room...

in dreams
I picture surgeons shooting the shit---
as her essence
slips
drips
unnoticed
off the table.
bits of who she once was
floating
lost
in an orderly’s mop bucket.

fuck you.
fuck your god.
think I'll have another drink,
fake another smile
one more nod
keep doing all I can
to keep from screaming---

yeah I’m buzzed.
what of it?
sunset slides helpless into black
and the bottle moans
"drink me..."

© Copyright claimed 2007, Debra Marlar

5 comments:

Drake Lightle (aka Deleted User; Charles Bukkake) said...
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Drake Lightle (aka Deleted User; Charles Bukkake) said...

Deb, darlin', those aren't dreams...those are nightmares.

And it ain't my god...it's the god of someone else's understanding who shall shoulder the blame.

By the way, your daughter has a great smile. She smiles like she means it, like she loves life. It's a good thing going on when the camera can capture an image which reflects that kind of energy.

It makes me wonder if the essence of who she once was is still there, and it's just some things that really aren't as important as we sometimes believe them to be which slipped.

Seriously, your daughter's smile is humbling.

I love ya, Deb

Amy B. said...

People say stupid things because they don't understand. Hell, I can't even say I understand, but I know that until someone has walked in your shoes and been what you've been through they have no right to judge or comment on how lucky you are.

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